I am tired of everything and I cannot find something to live for, the only thing that makes me happy right now is that probably I will change and be better, also that my weed edibles are arriving in two days, but if it was not for that two things, I would be f****** dead.
I am living in a military academy right now and it f****** s****, sometimes I just want to die.
Also, I am a virgin, which really pisses me off, I really want to find her, the girl to f*** with.
I have tried some things, such as alcohol, but they will just kill me slowly, so why not just kill myself quickly or f****** hit my head so hard that my brain gets a f****** concussion and dies or gets unconscious forever.
I am tired of people, I hate most of them, right now I have no friends and I am living just with boys.
I am just so f****** annoyed of everything, I really wanna die sometimes.
People will never f****** understand because they are so stupid, I just want to have reasons to stay alive and be motivated, I hate my thoughts, all of them and I don’t know what to f****** do anymore, someone please, please, help me, someone who understands this.
