Hello. I am quite worried about how i am. I lie. I lie a lot to get what i want. I lie so much i don’t know what the truth is anymore. I live with the lies i tell everyone. It is becoming an inconvenience now that i cannot tell the truth ftom the lies anymore. It’s like my lies have become the truth for me and the current truth is something i don’t care for since i can change it with a lie and i am very good at not getting caught. Even so,i used to feel guilty and scared whenever i lie. Now, i don’t. I don’t feel anything anymore, which is fine for me but i remember i used to feel. I use people to get what i want. I befriend them, use them and don’t get me wrong, i also relate with them, be there for them but after getting what i want from them, when i’m done with them,i don’t care for them. I even love. If it requires me to love someone just to use someone, i love. And every bit of feeling i have left is numb now. I’m so far off the truth to go back to it now. This is fucked up but i kind of like it and hate it at the same time.

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