It’s weird. I’ve been diagnosed with Severe depression since I was 11 years old. Yeah I had thoughts of suicide and an “emo phase”. But I got through it. Always keeping my mental state in check… ever since I was severely injured on the job in my early 20s. It’s been a bit harder, I’ve been forced out of my career of passion (I was a line cook/sous chef) because of said injury and haven’t found the same satisfaction with work cause I can’t do what I’m passionate about. Tonight has been really strange. Some things happened, a fight broke out between family members and after keeping the peace and realizing that I’m not allowed to have feelings of my own. I’m suicidal. Like commited to going through with it. I’m talking to a counselor about it, but still it was really scary to actually make it to the point of having a plan.
