I’m curious to know if you had all those emails and just deleted them recently.
I really don’t have a single thing except a printed picture and I don’t ever look at it but I do have it mixed in somewhere with the ton of paper, collected since probably before we met. I wouldn’t be surprised if there was an old pay stub envelope,but it’s things I need to destroy to discard. It’s why I bought a shredder. If I came to that picture, I don’t know what I would do with it. I don’t know if I would contemplate putting it through or keeping it because I can’t bring myself to shred a picture of you. I don’t have anything because I accepted the whole thing as a disaster, and it was gone for good. I looked at myself, the person I was during the time we new each, everything I did during and after as well as what I didn’t do that was terrible, what a loser I was in the end and realized, combined with the fact that I got nothing from you, ever, I concluded there was nothing there on your part for me anymore, you were in a better place with more and better opportunities that I knew you would take and it had to be better than anyhong I could give you. I dont have a low self esteem, I like me a lot, but hat how I felt you saw me. I havent had an email account I used with you since 2012. All long closed and everything in them not saved and deleted. I don’t use email for personal letters.
I also have a grey shirt, I think the only one I got with the logo on it. I don’t have any blue ones left. The grey one has holes in it, but I still wash it and wear it on days off if I’m not going anywhere.
