(I am Male and 16 years old) I come from a very religious and… well, homophobic family. My parents, particularly, don;’t approve of anything LGBTQ + related whatsoever.
Over the last year, I think i’ve had a affectionate/ platonic crush on my best friend, let’s call him Monty.
Monty and I have been friends for a long time, and have been best friends since the end of 9th grade.
Now, Monty doesn’t know about these feelings I’ve been having, and I just wish I didn’t have them in the first place. Not only because he’s straight and he’s my BFF, but because I have serious internalized homophobia from how I was raised.
I hate hate hate the fact that I have feeling for a guy. If god forbid anyone in my family finds out, I may as well take my bike, school supplies, and move out.
I just want these f****** feelings to leave me so I can be at peace with myself. I can’t stand this b*******.
It makes me depressed at night sometimes because it’s stupid.
I just have a completely affectionate feeling for him. Maybe not even kissing and definitely nothing s*****.
Ugh, this is one of the biggest reasons I dislike myself.
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Being gay is a natural and great thing and you should never be ashamed of yourself for it
Nothing sexual? I call bullshit. How many times have you thought about stretching that beautifull little butthole of his out, with your rock hard, ready to shoot cock? See? Even reading about it makes you tingle, and those gorgeous teen balls get tight.
Ew, gross. Never.
Everything I’m about to say is coming from someone your age so hopefully it’ll tone down the awkwardness a little. I’m from a religious family just like you, but I wouldn’t really say my parents are homophobic. I assume that since you mentioned you feel a little homophobic yourself (hopefully I read that right) half of you doesn’t want to go along with it? All I have to say is pray about it. If you still believe even remotely what your parents raised you on then that would be my best advice. I don’t know if I’d classify you as a homosexual though since you said they were not sexual feelings about him, which is basically what the term means. Just remember, we’re teenagers and a lot of weird feelings we’ve never experienced before start popping in our heads. It could be just a phase that will pass by soon. God bless you, babe <3
Thank you…
I myself am not homophobic. I AM however, homophobic of MYSELF