I’m a sick ugly person inside, most people like me would deny it but for me after a couple years I’ve accepted it. I hate myself for it because I wish I was normal, god I f****** fantasize about it. It’s not easy putting up a front so everyone thinks I’m normal. I have urges and needs that I can never get. Sometimes I fantasize about everyone on earth dying and I’m the only one left so I don’t have to hide anymore.

But sadly that will never happen.