Look at your life now, and ask yourself, are you satisfied with what you’ve produced? Have you achieved your sense of meaning and purpose? Are you happy?
I believe in my heart life has something for me. And that is why I am here, writing you.
I am always building myself up and encouraging myself. I give honest assessments of myself. I have failed miserably and felt stupid and dumb, and even said stupid and dumb, of myself.
In 2013 I had some difficult challenges. I was in the midst of a fight, and fought, and was knocked down and dropped to my knees. Well at least I got dropped for something. I realized life will drop you will whether you struggle or not. So slowly over time and surrounding myself with honest healthy mantras, ingesting healthy food and advice, exercising regularly and abstaining casual s** I began establishing firm footings towards a successful life.
However challenges continue:
I am challenged everyday working, wondering how far I can go.
I am challenged everyday volunteering, wondering how many lives I can impact.
I am challenged everyday emanating love, wondering who will be my life’s focus.
I am challenged everyday communicating, wondering how my brother and sister benefit from my ear.
I am challenged everyday saving, wondering how high credit scores and savings may rise.
I am challenged everyday placating arousal, wondering who will allow me to think of them.
I am challenged everyday quelling my libido, wondering if 9 sexless months is worthwhile.
I am challenged everyday wondering if my american family, Brazilian family, psychiatrist and therapists judge my addiction.
Dr. Smilely Blanton once said fear is the most subtle and destructive of human diseases. It can create the illusion of truth. My truths are very well defined. Illusions have no place in my mind, only Haikus:
My success is real,
My desire for love is real,
Thankful you are real.
