I used to purge all of my food. I stopped because I had anxiety about a doctor’s appointment. Its been months since the doctor’s appointment and I have only thrown up a few times. Then my parents got divorced. Now, since my dad lives with my grandma (at the house I used to throw up at every night) I can’t do it anymore. And I still have the habits of over drinking, throwing up in my mouth, and over-eating. I just don’t throw up and I have gained so much weight and I am craving any chance to purge. This makes me so ashamed, I cannot stand myself.