i feel that i’m completely lost although there are  some important close people surrounding me. i feel that i’ve lost the most important hings and people in my life… feeling lonely & afraid of the future & light headed & loving my boyfriend but couldn’t feel security with him & always my past memories threatens me by another way it means that always put the past events in front of me and began to remind them and remember what has been happened before sometimes feeling regret… I want a big change in my life but before that i want to scream at the highest voice i have then say & aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

i am really tired & nervous & anxious & sad & too too extremely lost