No matter who I’m with I’m only thinking of Jason. Nobody can make me feel the same way he did. It’s to the point that I need to be intoxicated while I’m being f*cked otherwise he’s all I can think about. I even fantasized about him while I was with my fwb just to get off. I feel like a horrible person, but time is only making things worse, not better. I need Jason to talk to me while my partner’s gone or the obsession’s only going to get worse. I’m gonna end up slipping up and saying his name when I’m drunk or delirious or something. I really need him. I really need to feel like I’m a person again. I need someone worth trying for. I need his help. He’s the only one that can help.