And that’s the other thing about me when it comes to women and attraction.

I am a tough nut to crack. I’m difficult, I’m picky and I do not settle for just anything. I need to feel something and she needs to feel something it needs to be 2 way. I will seriously not settle for anything less. No consideration at all.

One thing that will surely kill it for me, is TRYING too hard to be something you think I want and thinking that if you give me something to relate too.

That won’t work with me because I do not want, what I am.

Say for example, a woman who gushes over me, makes no bones about it, loves me. She is married, I am not attracted to her that way, in any way, but I like her as a person. I don’t mind that ylshe makes jokes about “accidentally” getting locked in the cooler, or making comments and then say to me “please don’t report me for harrassment..” as if I would. It’s a platonic love for me. I wouldn’t report, but, say that women one day decides she want so set me up with one of the girls she works for. See right there, I don’t take setups well. Love is not one of those things that gets set up and watched, in my opinion, especially by people I know especially certain people. That is not something I want anyone’s hand in, that kind of thing, love and romance just happens. I don’t look for ignored knline, I don’t, never have and never will. It’s natural, chance, and in real life. That’s it. That is the only option for me, my mind is closed. Because I see it every daym every single day. All I ever have to do is ask it’s there, all over the place. I’m forth ate. Blessed, even though I don’t think I’m a big deal, I just carry an energy that for some reasons people, women are drawn to. I don’t even honestly know why. I sort of do, but I don’t think it’s such a big deal I should be blessed with that magnetism, but it is there. So I don’t need a “setup” either.

So my point is, she is determined to set me up, honestly probably to score for this girl)woman/whatever, I am not interested. None of the girls who work for her, I know, does anything for me. Maybe they’re nice, I’m just not interested romantically. So she is persistent, why not? Do you smoke weed? Well yeah, but no. I do, I can, but not much, I’m not against it. Well so does she! We’ll call me a hypocrite but I dont want to date a woman who smoke or smokes weed. Call me sexist, but I consider that and something like tattoos, a masculine trait. It doesn’t work for me.