Doesn’t matter… Just saying. If you’re interested in touching me somehow, the best way to do that is with what you know I’m into or like.

And by “you”, I mean anyone. I have known a lot of women and the great majority of them who want me I’m some way, on some level, but can’t have me because I am just not interested in them or the people around them, they all have one thing in common. When they are looking for my attention of any kimd, but don’t want to just be honest, they use negative tactics to draw a negative reaction. I guess they feel “well, he is reacting, so he cares…” and that might be true sometimes with some people, but with me, I just end up not liking you very much and it’s a slippery slope with me that way. Some of them pull of not thing but the worst. An online s** worker who I could swear is a woman I knew as kids, we had a connection, HAD a connection. I’m not a fan of most of what she does. At all. She (this woman) actually started of with the same kink I have a long time ago. She is well known. What we had when we were kids was deep. We ended up at the same club in our early 20’s and yeah… We never talked that night, but we knew who each other were and there was something there. She followed me around the bar, up the stairs, down the stairs, around then place. Nothing happened for a few reasons, I didn’t like myself then, where I was at, didn’t want to ruin it, and I didn’t want to share THAT, which was important to me with the buds I was with.

This s** worker might not be her, but she knows it be too, I am still not clear convinced it isn’t her. She flipped out on me when I asked her, talked stupid, day my things like I should be addressing her as goddess, I never once said the name of the girl I know, I just asked her if she knew me, told her she looks like someone I knew. She flipped out, talked rude, I told her I wasn’t one of her f***** clown fans, because they really are clown faggots, and never said another word to her. In fact I disappeared, eventually closed my YouTube account, and vanished.

Now she does a lot of just nasty s***. P******, s*** eating, talk about bloody periods licking, literal cross dressing faggots, d*********, none of which I’m into. Actually I am repulsed by it and she does it with this smile that posses me off extra. And she knows it, because even while I stopped talking to her, I would make visible comments on other people’s videos about how revolting whatever particular kink she is doing.

She knew what I didn’t like. Which she doubled down on, which with her is often times super disgusting. Really disgusting. I am literally saying out loud “ew…” Closing the link. Then she posts a f********** clip and I am so grossed out by her, her feet are ugly and when it gets to that point with me… She did something wrong.