Just because sometimes ne dislikes you, does not make them a member of the KKK. Think about it. Surely you can look at yourself and understand how people,

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Just because sometimes ne dislikes you, does not make them a member of the KKK.

Think about it. Surely you can look at yourself and understand how people, especially a reserved straight white man would see you as a vile, annoying and offensive idiot? That’s not normal. Right?

So anyway, about that dream, it was as if, it felt to me like we were there to help move something. Or drop something off. Help in some way. I drop off stuff to a place frequently, under the instruction of a guy who knew her literally forever up until I met her and he knew what was going on. I get instruction to drop things off to this day, Friday, to the business of her father’s best friend, who always was a regular fixture at that place. ALWAYS. He’d just drop by. I know him on a personal level, we are first name, and it seems he likes me, he does, he likes it when I’m show up there. He’s a reserved guy but I can tell he likes me. Often times, no invoice. It’s just things. Always in the back of my mind am thinking ‘Is he the middle man?” Am I putting my germs on something that will be here?

Far fetched, not likely, u less by chance she walked in and he said “oh… Here….” Like I have seen him do for people.

And I am pretty sure it was the entire core crew, that’s what it felt like but the only one I remember interacting with is the dude who had a stroke a few weeks back, who started in 98 or so. I like the guy, he’s like my brother, but he was and has always been in physically bad shape BUT he also is the latest inna string of people I know who have had strokes, and the link in my head, is they all smoked. Every, single, one of them. And that’s what I believe is the cause of it. That’s the link. Cancer, maybe, heart attack, possibly but I believe a stroke is more likely.

So heahm I need to work on quitting, BUT I got a little side tracked, my point is I only remember talking to him and I can’t remember exactly it was, that was a blackout can’t remember, but the vibe was he was giving me flack for mentioning her. Where is she? Even though I never asked. He used to give me flack for that. Asking about her again. You’re always asking about her? Exacerbated of course. It was exagerated. It bugged me when he said it, so I stopped just to see what he’d do, and hed still give me flack. It was a mix of that vibe, and a mix of “I don’t know, we were told to be here, talk to this guy about why if you don’t want to be here?” Which is also his thing “I’m just doing what 8
I’m told?!?” I’d be like we’ll do what your told, but ALSO DO MORE. USE YOUR BRAIN A BIT, IMPROVISE, GRAB THE WHEEEL. That and the feeling of cameras watching me. Ugly mostly yellow crocs with a flowery design at the door? I want to say? at the door.

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Listen up Husbands and Boy Friends. Here’s the deal and it could happen. If the Wife or Girlfriend agrees on bringing in some back up. During the warmup time. And you notice his Cream Pie nozzle is larger than yours’s. Just deal with it and let him fill that pie pan. Because mine was canceled to this. But yesterday while shopping guess what. I seen this guy at Walmart. Guess where I ended up at. His place opening up my pie pan for his extra-long nozzle. Afterwards I gave him thanks by cleaning his nozzle. Then unexpectedly his nozzle became uncontrollable and coated my throat with a patch of warm cream pie.

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I know the ex wife posts prob get old butbi have no one else to or vent this chaos and toxicity to. Ed wife talk last night, she had expectes reaction to FWB thing ended. After that call i got a string of provocative pics and vids from her. Was a atruggle fir me to disregard and not respond. She came over and when i did not answer door got mad over locks changing and her key not working. Got a bit loud so to not make a scene let her in. She ranted a bit then started crying saying she couls not go back to no s** in her life (not about me just s** in general). Said she knew i knew how that feels and she was not wrong. She calmed down and we talked a bit but she would not give up completely, even a bit haughty said ok the punishment was fine just whatever i felt i had to do so the s** could reaume. Warned her that she may not realize what that meant and allowed her to see the bruises on my cheeks backs of thighs and scrotum. She got a bit wide eyed and asked how i was letting the coach/coordinator do that and control my s** life and by eztension hers as well. I told her it was simple…he makes sure i get enjoyablesex because i cant go back to no s** either. She said she understood that and stood and raised her skirt and pulled her p****** down and bent over the end id the sofa. I managed to be brave enough to ask her if this was about s** with me or wanting him to f*** her again. She asked if that really mattered if everyone wins. I told her it only mattered because if she had any hope of being fucked by him again there would have to be a vudeo and she shrugged I took off my belt and gave her what i had gotten for the most part. It was rough on her but after a while the moans and cries lessened. She ended up turning and kneeling and lifting her breasts up and i realized what she wanted. I had the thought of this is not suppposed to be for her enjoyment but the concept of abusing and marking her breasts with my belt was intriguing. I suppose it does not matter why but bottom line while i belted ber breasts one of her hands went between her legs and she came. She asked if she had taken the punishment he intended. I told her there was one more step. I led her to the bathroom and had her kneel in the shower and she was wide eyed and angry but she took my limp p**** in het hand and aimed me all over her body except her face. I helped rinse her off after. Took her back to hr clothes but she remained bare and asked to see tbe video. It was as if i was not there as she roamed her hands over her marked areas and it had to have been painful the way she mauled her breasts and even climaxed while watching herself sprayed with ny urine. Looked at me and even asked if i wanted to m********* on her. I declined and said i just couldnt at her ezpense. She nodded and as she put her clothes and said she wanted to be honest that she still deaperately wanted him to f*** her again and to please show him the video. I promised i would and would let her know. I told her i understood the preference because when he fucked her i had seen her respond in ways i did not know existed. She sad she was sorry and drew the analogy of me being on my knees for neghborhood men, there was a fulfillment that we did not complete for each other. Made sense to me without being hurtful. She also even quietly admittes that she wanted us to try to resume our FWB acticities because i was able to give her what she needed in a mainstream way and was fearful of losing that with hiw well i knew her core needs and pleasures. Then she teased me and said that she had definite interest in kneeling in the shower again and that she had not expected to enjoy it, that her desire to m********* again was mostly becsase of that and admitted it was not punishment for her. I laughed and said that we would keep that in mind especially since i did not know how whether he would reconsider even with thr punishment nor how he would respond to me even letting her in the door. She said she understood and that even if he waa angry and cut me off then we had something new to enjky and i would make a huge pot of coffee and we would make a day out of it. Multiple random feelings. How he will react. How i will handle being cut off aa well and relying even more heavily on my ex wife for s**. Becsuse that might get even more codependent and tozic and it already is so badly.