You need to damn well call me. Call me and give me a way to connect with you. A number an email or something. We can’t use normal rules here, me “making the first move”, that kind of thing. Technically I did. Twice. IMMEDIATELY after I found a window. Literally minutes after.

What the hell more incentive do I need the show? Could I be any more forward? (I could, but would it cause you problems and hurt me too? Hurt us) I’ve shown a few initiatives 1)I remember 2)I care 3)I want you to see me 4)I answered and talked to your mother. Jeez. Come on.

I want to change this number. Not because of you, it’s been compromised since before I found you. The reason I haven’t yet is laziness. I should have maybe not been so hasty, and instead of immediately opening my mouth and drawing attention to myself, I should have fist set in the new phone I have here in the box for a month, THEN drawn attention from you to myself. I need to get rid of it and the email I used too. But with you now, I dont want to do that. I want to be able to get rid of it and say “here, this is my new number” but I can’t.

I don’t want to disappear on you. Again. I won’t.