I need this possibly answered, I don’t know if it’s a big issue or not.

I am a frequent user on discord, and in the past I have had several close friends un-add me multiple times (and then added back). And now I can’t help but check almost every day if any of my friends are still friended. It feels like fear, whenever a specific person is offline for a while my heart sinks and I have to check if they are still there. is this like a fear of abandonment? trauma? idk.