I am a 12 year old Muslim girl born in USA.

I am lucky to be born in USA but my Father says this country is filled with evil and corrupts Muslims. It is not allowed for me to m********* under my Father’s rules and being Muslim. He is very strict and I must stay away from boys. I am allowed to visit my girlfriend’s home even though she is not Muslim. She showed me how to rub one of her father’s golf balls on my c******* to have a wonderful o*****. She also showed me how to insert them up inside me.

I can easily insert three balls up inside me. Then I rub another golf ball on my c*******. It feels so wonderful. She gave me six golf balls and I took them home and I carefully and secretly use them. My parents search my room so I printed up a couple of pages about the sport of golf and put those pages with two balls in my drawer. My mother asked me if I was interested in golfing and I said Yes I’d like to be a champion. She just laughed. So my parents have overlooked the balls because they don’t know what I use them for. I deserve to be punished for lying to them.

I always wash the balls in soap after squeezing them back out of my opening. They are always clean and fresh. At night I push them upside me and then I pull on and pinch my my c******* until I feel so good. I have kept one ball inside me all day at school. No one knew I was sitting there with a golf ball up my p****. I washed it off really well in the girls lavatory and dried it before going home. That way if I get searched it’s just another golf ball. My parents won’t think anything of it. I am going to go to school with one up inside me again. Then I am going to make it two inside me. I know I can hold one all day and I think I can hold two all day.

I’m lucky that I was born here because that way I get to keep my c*******. My Father said he would have it cut out if ever I was a bad girl and rubbed it. I never know when he is going to examine me. I worry about getting caught and what my Father would do to me. I know that I my Father would be furious if he knew. Sometimes I wish he would have it cut out so that I would not be so bad. I know that Allah is going to punish me for being a bad Muslim. Maybe that is why I punish my c******* by pinching it, but it helps me feel good even though it hurts. I want to pinch it harder and punish it for making me so bad but I can’t leave any marks on it that my Father might see.

I would feel better if my Father beat me for my sins but I know he won’t stop there. He would have my c******* cut out and then honor kill me. So I can’t tell him anything. I know my Father is right about this country’s evil corrupting Muslims. It has corrupted me and I worry about it but I can’t stop. I am so bad that I wish the golf balls were even bigger.