I really personally want to stop feeling this soul destroying pain. I was sadistically tortured and raped. I am truly full of hate. The kind that is dangerously near to killing those responsible. I have no idea how to heal from this. No idea how to even begin to walk free of this murderous hate i secretly harbor. I want Justice. Not just lawful. I want to make them suffer. I just want to even the score. May God heal me.
