I am not sure if I truly love someone . and even more unsure if he Truly lovEs me. I don’t know.

I stopped saying I loVe you because I felt rushed. And he would only say it , if I said it first . so now I just stopped.

I feel such a pressure to love and be loved in return. But I think it’s fear based . not faith based .

Maybe in time ill just feel calm ..no roller coaster ride! I think he also feels a pressure.

Hes really kind. But Hes as scared if not morso than me .

Im terrible and terrifyed of love and the loss. I need to understand why im really sooo scared of loss and abandonment and rejection.

What’s wrong with me?!!