I just realized that even though I thought I was ok with being alone (emotionally) yet physically satisfying myself s*******, socially, monetarily, etc etc, being busy with work and school – I’m still… lonely *at times*. Not always and not even much at all.
I’m an independent woman, I don’t like being dependent on anyone or anything especially after a toxic a** relationship with exes and family my entire early life. But now that I’ve come a long way working on myself and achieving much… I suddenly feel alone. But I sure as hell don’t want to settle for less than what I want nor someone who is emotionally nor physically abusive nor a cheater! My god the amount of infidelity out there in the world. I don’t need that crap in my life! It seems like if I want one, then the other will surely follow.