i was raped before , I hate getting naked at home alone . I know I need to shower ..but I am terrified. I not only lock my doors ..but I put things to block my door . I never shower at night …never . I live in terror of being harmed again .
I have Been known to place a chair to block my door to wedge it . I used to carry knives everywhere. I am healing ..but I am scared.
I can’t relax my guard . other than getting a gun …Im really struggling to …sustain my life…and sanity .
