You know why I think maybe my anxiety is up? It’s probably because I haven’t been eating or sleeping well. I’ve been sitting here on the floor for nearly two hours looking at my couch like it’s gonna tell me why I think im absolute s***. Anyway I’m thinking If I just have some tea and knock out I’ll be okay but I also NEED my room to be clean or I’ll cry… also mom is asking me to clean the kitchen and I hate it cause I can’t clean when she and dad are in the kitchen because it also gives me anxiety, I don’t know why, I just never been comfortable to clean while people are nearby and are able to see me. What’s wrong with me? You ever wonder if it be helpful to do the same thing Davy Jones did and cut out your heart so you wouldn’t have to feel things again? Wish I could do that now.