I just realised that I still haven’t stopped loving the person who rejected me. And my friends are dumb and I hate them. I honestly just wanna smoke weed alone with someone who shares the same vibe as me. But I was also thinking about how easy it would be to just kill myself right now. I just feel so much pain all of a sudden. And I also feel like a massive loser and like I’m going to die soon. I feel like I have no ambitions at all there is nothing that interests me and I’m just a boring a** f*** who’s probably going to die soon getting hit by a truck in the middle of a highway and then no one will even realise that I’m missing because no one f***** cares about me. And everyone around is better than me.