i just feel like i’m being punished honestly. why does all of this feel like my fault. i just wanna be happy with you if i’m being honest but at the same time i feel like i’m genuinely scared of commitment at the moment and you have no time to wait for me or sit here and that’s selfish of me to ask. but is it? because i feel like i sat there and tortured mtself and when i finally got the courage to be try and be on my own it felt like u took me for granted all that time. i’m trying to be happy but it’s so hard when i’m so exhausted of this situation. and i wish this situation didn’t happen but if it didn’t, you would’ve never realized u wanna be w me again and now ur j gonna do it with someone else because i’m so lost. you don’t want lost rn you don’t wanna deal with me or how i feel or how i’m thinking. you’d rather be alone to go express yourself w whoever. i don’t wanna cry myself to sleep anymore i don’t wanna do this i’m so overwhelmed with my own self. i cant keep doing this