I let them go…. See ya later have a nice life and I think it makes a few of them do some thinking. I mean a lot of thinking because that’s not what people, men or women expect. No contact, with no intention of going back or trying to get back in. They want drunk phone calls, and posts which I don’t have access too. In have no social media. I’m still in the 90’s. I don’t exist to anyone that is not only life. And I let them go inna old note. I’m not sad, there no real emotion, but it’s sort of like “well!… Have a bounce life!” and that’s it.

The thing is I look at everything realistically based on what I see, and what they show me. I know if this is not gonna end well and it probably is not worth anything how bad it’ll be until the end. Haha!

But yeah. I know it’s as if I am dead inside. That sounds bad but it is. It’s not what I was at one point. I was optimistic about certain things in life, and I am out there every day, Imam not a recluse living in a basement, I see and know people all day every day, and I am dead inside, but Inside things realistically. It’s not wrong to be dead inside when it comes to certain aspects of life, love and romance, it comes with experience. Part of the reason I am so easy going when it comes to a separation is because I never put too much hope into anything so that when it does end, and it probably will end, a good thing is one of the rarest things in the world, when it ends, I knew it, so it’s not a big deal.

I have absolutely wasted a lot of time a long time ago on things, chasing things I had and wanted back, I firmly believed there was something very real there, and I got nothing. I got worse than nothing I got fucked in the head and wasted too many years of my life. Good years of my life. On nothing. That’s actually the real reason I don’t chase. I don’t get jealous because I’m that confident in what I am. I honestly believe that I am the best and it’s a loss on her part. Even if she doesn’t realize it then, she will. They usually do. That’s why I don’t get jealous. You otta be honest with yaul