People love cheerful and a happy women.All i did today was sleep and scroll youtube shorts,Don’t even remember what i was looking.It was all BST fan shorts.I dont even like BTS am 26 and too old for all this.I was angry,sad,lost,scared.I have all this feeling,i wanna take it all out but i can’t and its killing me inside that i can’t do anything.And got in a fight with my guy and he is so angry.I just wanted him to love me,understand me but then i dont wanna talk with him.What the f***
I am not angry at him but i am angry at him.Its the mixed feeling.How can someone be in love with a person like me.People like smart,happy mentally stable women.Not a person like me.I know i am horrible but i am angry and i can’t agree with my mistakes right now but i know its my fault but its the fault of the situation and this Corona too.Its been 2 years i haven’t seen him.Its making me mad.I feel lonely
What can i even do about it.I am not dependent on him.I just feel like i want him by my side on bad days