I’m just so so tired. I feel like I’m walking down the start of a path with no real end, and not even steps on the way. I’m just exhausted and I don’t want to be. I’m only 15, almost 16, I shouldn’t feel like this. I should be enjoying my life, dating or going out with friends, but instead I’m stuck at home and pushing thru my school work. I don’t even want to do it anymore. What’s the point? I’m not suicidal or anything but f*** what truly is the meaning in a capitalistic b******* country?

Go to college, become forever stuck under debt from the bank, try to find a job behind a desk just to scrape by, have my mental health take a toll. And somehow have money left over to eat, find hobbies and enjoy myself, retire?????? Like wtf am I supposed to do??? I don’t know how to truly succeed in a life that’s made for rich white men and to live under the rich male gaze. Like wtf????????????

But y’know, yaayyy I’ll be 16 soon. So fun. Just a year closer to being fucked over for the rest of my life.