i dont blame you. I hate that i am as shallow as you in some ways. I hate that about myself. I am not a “perfect” woman. i made a lot of mistakes. i hope you know, I would have loved you. But i think you love me as you would a dear friend. But you aren’t attracted to me. Oh. its okay. I just had hope, that ONE man would see beyond my exterior to my heart. I guess that is asking too much. Or maybe my heart is too dang hidden to be seen. I know I lost 70 lbs. i’m 5’8., long legs. long dark hair. Not as ugly as some. not as pretty as others. But i sure wished you had taken time to get to know me. I wish you the best in life. If not me. then someone else to love you. You love blondes. (i’m not) i hate myself in blonde hair. i look like a clown. I look fake. Like its a joke. Plus i look younger in dark hair. Sultry. Just do. I do not know where this will go. I just know….i don’t think you and I are destined for an eternal love. I could be wrong. But i don’t think I am.