Some people can be going thru hell & still manage to be full of life, however, some ppl can be living in heaven n would still choose to rot…..I’m the second type, I’m a really lucky person, I get whatever I want, most of the time…..Idk why but I just never let myself be happy….Whatever good comes in my way, I just push it all away. I always choose to rot all alone by myself. Sometimes, what I want is right in front me but for some reason my heart just don’t wanna accept it. I totally s*** at friendships n relationships…all kinda “ships” in general. So, I don’t be friends with anyone & recently I just found a person who I’d love to be friends with, we’ve been spending a lot of time together but the prob is that I just can’t keep anything good in my life, no matter how much I need it…….I love myself more than anything but I still feel like I’m my own enemy….Why does it have to be this hard? It’s all just me…..I hate what I’m doing to myself.