sometimes i think you might be right. Some guys are parasites. But some men are kind. not many. but some truly are wonderful. i have yet to meet any. maybe someday when i get my own life together. Things will be better. I do not want a man to “take care” of me. I guess i just would love some companionship. Its been a very long time.

I do understand your bitterness. I kinda do. I know what its like to face betrayal. etc. I understand. A man is the harshest (white man) is the harshest judge and critic. they are also truly the cruelest race of people. I just wish i were wrong. But i’m not. I am a white woman. I grew up listening to white guys talk cruel. My brother was one of those guys. its how i know. Him and all his buddies would talk sick and were cruel to girls. They used them. Cheated on them.

Oh I’m sure they are sorry now. But its a little late to say “sorry”…because the damage is done. I can’t forget. It haunts me the way they would speak. Even now. it still bothers me.

So yes, some guys are kinda bad…wish they werent. but are.

Forgive those very sick boys. I know the easy way is to hate them. I understand. But harboring the hate and poison….is just hurting you. Let it go.

god bless you.