I just saw her. she have a Special place. Although I don’t have a courage to face her, and say what about I feel for her, I hide my self from facing her. I have unknown feeling about her. I can’t describe what it is called.
I think I love her since that First sight, but I still don’t saw her in my dream. I know I am a coward. I loose daily to myself. I am lazy. I am mentaly weak. I can’t fight to myself.
Can’t describe what I feel for her. I can’t Understand. Even I can’t Understand myself.
I am Addicted to bad habits. I do them everyday. I have a low self steem. I don’t feel alive. Sometime I feel so stress but still I don’t do good things. And when I see her every time, she gives me craving, and I See her like a poor child See a expencive toy.
I hate myself. I can’t do anything. I am so coward. I can’t fight to myself. I am a fool who know what is right and what is wrong but still I do wrong things. I always feel low. I always feel less energatic. I always procrastinate things. I can’t face my problems. I dabble in talking. I can’t bear pressure. I hate my self. I don’t know why I am born. No one cares about me except my parents. They have very much expectation with me. Still I don’t do work towards their expectation. I feel guilty everytime