I refused to urinate in the bottle as my nurse instructed. So she had me put in restraints so she could catheterize me. She inserted the rubber tube down my p**** and way up inside me while her assistant watched and held my p****. She tilted the bed up so I would see the tube disappear up inside me. She left me uncovered and spread wide open so everyone could see. Then the lunch girl came in the room and stared at my half erect p**** with the rubber tube protruding out and I was so humiliated. Then the cleaning girl came in and I couldn’t cover up so she kept looking at it too and smirking.

My nurse said I needed to learn some humility. I was angry about it and uncooperative so she smacked my balls and I thought I was going to throw up from the pain. Then she asked if I understood who was in charge and if I’d like to apologize to her or if I needed my balls smacked some more. I told her I was sorry and she was in charge. She said to address her respectfully as ma’am. I said yes ma’am you are in charge and I’ll do as you say.

She said her nursing assistant had never catheterized anyone and asked if I would volunteer to be her first. I was afraid that she would punish my balls if I didn’t say yes ma’am. So I said yes that I want her catheterize me. My nurse came back with the nursing assistant. They took the tube out and then catheterized me. Then I as done twice more for practice. Fortunately it went well and I thanked her and my nurse. They took out their i-phones and took souvenir pics of the assistant’s first real patient, with her holding my shaft and pointing to the catheter she successfully put in.

Later my nurse warned me to not even think about filing a complaint. I wouldn’t be able to prove anything and I’d sound crazy. She made me hand write a “thank you” letter praising her for her excellent care. Something snapped inside me when I was helpless and those girls came in the room and gawked and later when I got my balls punished. I realized I wasn’t always in control and not so important.

After I calmed down we talked and I admitted that I was inconsiderate of her and the assistant. I realized that I should be a better person and I sent her a text thanking her and inviting her out to lunch when I got out of the hospital. Actually her nursing care was excellent. We have gone to lunch three times and she has helped me improve myself. I am glad that I met her and that she took control away from me. I am glad that I was able to be of service to her assistant.

I might have been resentful but she taught me that there are other ways to look at things. I hope to see again.