I pretty much live inside my head like 90% of the time. It’s exhausting, I mock-interview myself, construct dialogue, fake-chat with friends. It’s pretty much all ego-centric, but good god, it takes a lot out of me, I can’t ever rest from ‘myself’ Sometimes I lie awake for hours at night until my mind makes me drive itself to bad or saddening memories. I have no idea why. It’s energy-sapping and sounds pretty much insane! But this is what I’ve been going through pretty much my entire life. It’s like I have crazy creativity but no release. It’s frustrating and at the same time sometimes amusing, but ultimately I can never rest from myself. Wish I wasn’t ‘me’ 🙁