You’ve been honest you don’t want to see me again, and thats fine. Also that you have what you need now people wise and I have to go. I understand, and Im not angry. Weirdly enough I still really do care about and love you. I don’t think i was in love with you, I think you reminded me of her…at least initially. But I really did grow to actually love and care and care about you too for whatever its worth. I don’t want you to feel bad you don’t feel the same….I never will be your ride or die and Its okay. I still think you’re a good person . I believe that so wholeheartedly…and its so hard to let you go. It would mean a lot to have a real goodbye. I dont know what I could offer in return? I really do know I don’t want to cry anymore, or try to convince someone im worthy who doesn’t see it….thats not really fair to you either. I know you care, and I know you tried. But I want you to be happy, and maybe you can be without me.
Im asking permission because you also asked i never call again so. I cant hate you. I probably always will love you to death, the same as I will always love her. But she’s dead so you know that makes things a bit easier. How do you grieve the loss of someone you loved that much thats still here?