Half my age and while I’m not a bad looking guy, atm, I could be better/cuter/more handsome. Im coming off the last buzz cut for a while. Manly, masculine, but not cute. I dont think I’m all that attractive at this very moment. This is a pretty girl.

Im not good enough for her, and I like the socks with hearts all over the socks she was wearing I think they were hearts in her flats, in her uniform. Not good enough, but that doesnt mean it would be wrong…

And I did notice she was turning aroind and looking at me. And doing that thing Uma Theran did in Pulp Fiction. Even if she was in shoes, it didnt stop my imagination.

Im agnowledging that I (feel I) am too old for her and not good enough right now, at this point in time. A month or two I’ll be more confident that Im almost there, not now. Im ugly even, which is good too for a while. When I get better in a month or so, all the attention I get from women of ALL ages that I am used to who I know think Im a cute man it will feel extra good.

You want to split hairs, I made a woman probably 10 years older than I am, who I am aquaintence of say whoo! out loud to herself yesterday when she gave me a noticeable chubby from her fresh pedicure…. so f*** you….