I still love her. ‘Almost’ dating somebody is difficult sometimes… i love her. I want to spend my life with her. I want her forever. But she’s aromantic— doesn’t feel any romantic feelings or desires what so ever. I just… love her. She’s my best friend. Has been for 8 years. And she cares about me deeply too, but not in the romantic way. It’s hard when your best friend is the girl you want to hold at night. To cuddle. It makes me worry that i’ve idealized her too much. I hope i can find someone to fill this hole that will also allow me to keep my best friend close to me forever