I don’t want to be here either , I don’t know what to do . It wouldn’t even matter if I called them, they wouldn’t know who the hell I was . It wasn’t real, that person can’t miss me they don’t exist . It was a character they played . Now they are someone else, with someone else . The reality is so horrible I think I just sometimes try to block it out . I’m the one suffering, they don’t think anything or about me period. It was nice having a friend though, it took the loneliness away . I did it to myself tho .

Besides kill myself which I can’t until the dog goes if anyone has any suggestions I’m open to if ? I already see a therapist and take pills . I don’t know what to do . I miss someone that doesn’t exist