I plan to kill myself as soon as my dog dies. I have it all planned . Got to be patient kids . I feel like it will make H happy . Me too .

In the meantime any ideas on how to move forward in the absence of you know people in my life , love or closure ? My dog needs me how do I stick it out for her ? Also is it ok to still check on my friend as long as I act happy and don’t bring my own stuff up ? I worry if she’s ok .