I guess I’m one of those folks that tries to see the good in everyone, sometimes where there just is none . I tried so hard to prove my loyalty, despite the cruelty and abuse only to get kicked in the teeth again and again …and I did it to myself. Because I wanted to believe you just needed someone to stay the course and give a damn. Everything was a lie and a manipulation . Even the crocodile tears. Just a way to get attention and lure in the next victim . You care about no one and nothing beyond your own selfish needs . You tried so hard to let me know that too, that you were heartless and cruel and did not care . I wish I had listened rather then doggedly refusing to give up on loving you . Finally, finally I think I believe you . You never gave a whiff about me nor working things out or wanting me around. You do not like my hugs, you did not enjoy our phone and video calls nor did you ever want to meet up again or hang out …nothing personal you just got bored, and I no longer served a purpose . You only went along with the “best friend” and “I miss you” crap because it was what I wanted to hear (when I was useful for something) and entertainment as a basis for A game of push pull when I wasn’t . Haha lets make her cry and then encourage her suicide that’s funny . Wow such a quality individual. And you are proud of if . sickening