Hi Thomas,
I am fine with however you want to be and how you want to be seen, I have no problems with any of it. I wonder what I would feel like if I dressed and behaved like a girl, but I can’t imagine it, so I was wondering how you felt in your reality as a female boy?
Truth be told, the last time I had s** was before you were born, about 19 years ago, with the woman who I was engaged to marry, she was 16 years younger than me, but I backed out 4 weeks before we were due to get married, because we were not sufficiently compatible – she was exactly like me, but my complete opposite and where I have always given, she always took and life played its tricks on me and I ended up looking after a previous female lover, as her paid Carer, for about 12 years, when she went into a home and s** was off the table, for me then and my latest female companion is rather large and does not do anything for me s*******, so we have never made love and never will, although she has been living with me in my home these past 6 years and we otherwise get along just fine. Good company for each other, she is 6 months older than me, so when she behaves oddly, I say “in 6 months time, that’s what I have to look forward to being like”, which goes down like a lead brick!!.
From what you have said, you don’t like the boys you come into contact with, because they are rather gross and you don’t like girls and the way they behave, because they act inferior to men, so by being a female/male you identify with all of the good things you see in a male and all of the good things you see in a female and none of the worst, from either of them.
Of course, s** is illegal in Western culture up to 18, so that’s not a problem for you until 18 and if you are of a culture other than Western, well, your parents will marry you off, to whoever they choose, in an arranged marriage and you won’t have any say about your s******** then, which I personally think is horrid.
I notice you ask me questions, but you don’t reply to mine and any communication, no matter how vague, is always give and take and you have to give more to me, in order to take whatever I give you, or teach you, if you are disposed to listen.
In life, everything is a two way street and maturity comes with open communication both ways, bearing in mind we both live on Mars and I’m good with that.
When you got your first period, you aged by about 6 years, older, overnight, while the boys of your age remained silly and 15, so when you talk to guys, you should always talk with guys who are in their 20’s because they have the maturity that boys your age lack.
While you identify with Thomas, in real life, do you dress in feminine clothing?
Do your parents have any idea how you feel mentally, at the moment and would they care if they knew how you felt?
I understand your relationship with girls your own age, because like you, when they got their periods too, they aged 6 years overnight, just the same as you did.
From the limited way you described yourself, I gather you look very feminine and you are not slim or flat as a board and how do you relate to that as a Guy?
Enough for now – I’m off to bed 12.30 am.
I have a Queen sized bed and my 2 Grayhounds like to spread themselves all over it, as they sleep with me and I probably will have to move one of them, otherwise I get to sleep on the floor – which is not happening, Ace male that I am in their doggy world.
I have fallen out of bed 4 times so far, in my sleep, when they have pushed me out of it and the last time was the least painful, because I rolled myself into a ball and avoided the bedside cabinet – unlike previous times – so if you fall out of bed while you are asleep, you don’t die when you hit the ground, after all.
Much Laughter – do you have a pet which keeps you company at night too?
Bye for now Thomas, all the best, Richard.