Lily- sorry love I was busy with stuff at home and family coming over but sometimes I feel like I am straight up getting played and other days I forget abt things but it’s a rollercoaster. Today was a vv bad day, like rlly bad I was rlly upset and mad thinking abt the past n stuff and she couldn’t rlly help Bc she had her own feelings going on so I had to deal w em. I obviously didn’t do good dealing with them Bc I ended up wanting space which usually ends bad. But I felt bad cause she had her own stuff going on so I tried to give her a lil break from repeating herself everyday. I tried to shift the focus on her to help her w her feelings but she doesn’t rlly talk abt it. I’m scared that she doesn’t talk abt it w me because she has someone else to talk abt it with. I used to be the one she was always open and talking abt her depression w but I’m scared she’s coping another way by texting others n stuff. sorry for the long a** essay I j haven’t let out anything in a minute 🦧 how r u and ur boyfriend