lily- honestly it’s really good that u still love her and want her in ur life. it shows a lot. being friends is honestly probably a really good thing right now and the best relationships can grow from that. i don’t know if u guys ever got to have a friendship and then build off of it but it’s a good place to start. that’s of course if you’re ever interested again to being with her but it’s good with building trust and the things u guys lack all over again. and remember to stop painting images that may not be true. u cant forget the good things she’s done especially waiting!! and make sure u know her like u say u do because that’s also what i told my boyfriend. to move on , don’t wait for me, and in time it came together again. he didn’t listen to me so im sure if she’s come this far she’s not listening either. let me know how u r today!