COMMENT AND HELP OR JUST SAY SOMETHING BECAUSE I NEED IT RIGHT NOW………

To Matt : Why do I have feelings for you!? I don’t want to like you, you’re…ew. Yeah, you’re one of my best friends (As much as I ‘hate’ to admit it…) You’re funny, really f****** funny… like wow. You’re nice too… You’ve talked me out of suicide a few times to be honest. But I DON’T want to have feelings for you! For a year now, every time I get the feelings, I push them away. The keep coming back though, what the f***?! I know I can’t have you. I don’t think you want to date ANYONE in Ephrata, let alone me. I want the feelings to go away. Oh my god, just go away! When they do, I get excited. Then they come back!?! AND STRONGER?! What is wrong with me. I feel like I’m going insane… Help>!

-KMR