is it just me or when ppl say they understand and u have to pretend like they do when u know in ur heart they have no idea. especially when ur parents think they understand but u know they don’t since we r two different ppl and i’m just more fucked up. they were good kids. stayed out of trouble. did what they were told. ik they were. i don’t. i attract negative attention. ik i’m being watched. men and guys stare idk y because i’m flat and ugly. i cheat on tests. i’ve been suspended within the first month of this school. i still haven’t learned and keep repeating s***. i don’t think before i speak and then i regret it. i have no filter. i forget who i’m with. i’m to free and trusting. ppl take advantage of me. ppl have grabbed my a**. i cry to sleep a lot. my best friends sister peer pressures me to drink and juul when she’s only 15. she’s toxic. i feel empty or rlly sad. i cry myself to sleep a lot. nothing is good in my life at this point. it’s all so pointless. i wanna grow up and look back at this and say i was one dumb b****. i’m 12.