I’ve never dated anyone or kissed anyone sober and yeah I can say that I’ve been focused on school, or that my standards are too high, or whatever else, and while they may be half truths- it just s****. I’m 19, summer after my freshman year. I’ve asked one person out and it didn’t turn out well which, whatever, it happens, but its not like people haven’t liked me! At least like, 5 of my friends have had crushes on me, and while we’re great friends and i love them, only one confessed while they actually liked me- the rest have been drunken confessions after the fact…and they all say its because im “too pretty” and that is “intimidating” which really just rubs salt in the wound. Say they’re right, I am pretty, that shouldn’t stop people, and so what- then i’m average looking (which is fine) and it’s some other problem, that makes it so I wouldn’t be a good girlfriend. And for years I’ve been wracked with anxiety about being inexperienced, which makes me feel worse. I usually don’t think about it so much, but it’s been coming up more lately- and I’m watching Roman Holiday. I know society puts romance on a pedestal it doesn’t necessarily deserve, but it still sounds nice. I think my parents are worried, and my family thinks its weird I’ve never brought someone over, and my friends all have s.o’s…My life is still fun and fulfilling, but..well it’s always the “but” isn’t it