I just don’t understand why for you to be happy in the relationship, you have to impoverish the other person. Why can’t you be happy making someone else happy? At least now and again.
And also why don’t you have any loyalty to give to anyone else? If it’s given to you why can’t you return it? Why can’t you return anything? You’re just a one way street in all things and I will never be able to comprehend why that alone seems to make you feel whole.