Everyone is so stupid, it makes me so mad. I can’t elaborate, because I don’t want to make my blood boil. I cannot deal with other people. I just cannot. I wish I was someone else. I should be happy, according to society, but I am miserable. No one understands, and it infuriates me. I need to know how to cope with my thoughts and feelings or I’m going to get really sick. My therapist just says I need to practice acceptance. I firmly believe that this world is a punishment. A “Hell”, if you will. Someday, I will write what causes me such anguish. It can be briefly stated as..we, as a species, have a lot of thought distortions..we value stupid s*** and are self-serving af..we are divisive over the stupidest s***..we are tribalistic..so much more..u know some f*** told me that this world was made for humans? It wasn’t, you’re just a f****** retarded human, so of course you think it was. God, I despise our species. Animals are assholes, too, though, which makes me sad. At least I can’t undwrstand them and don’t have to listen to their b*******. Like..you can’t really escape humans, can you..even if you were a complete hermit, you would need entertainment. Books, movies, art..all human creations! Born of human thought. See, why I am in Hell? I can’t cope or escape.

That helped a little bit. Maybe I will journal or write a story. I’m gonna go get shitfaced, too much emotion. I hate that I can’t cope..like literally just being alive stresses me out.i don’t see a way out. Maybe a lobotomy? 🤨