For once I want to feel true love in my life. I don’t know why but when my friends get excited when talking about their crushes and love, I just sit there pretending to know what they are feeling but inside it’s like I’m numb or something. It’s not that I don’t feel anything, it’s just that I never really had a crush or slightest attraction for somebody. I want to feel it but it’s like a fantasy that is just good when it’s in books not reality. I want to love someone and be loved by someone who is not my parent but will I ever be able to do that?