Its been long since we talked, I wanted to tell her how I really feel but I lost my chance.
Yes, what happened was wrong but I am no saint. It was wrong and I cannot justify my actions because no matter the reason it was wrong but I never thought twice of grabbing the opportunity to talk to her, be at her side, hold her hand, walk her home and end the day with a hug or a kiss. She was probably still hurting from her previous relationship at that time and I was in a long distance relationship yet despite such circumstance she opened herself to me and accepted me. We started spending time and everything simply clicked. I loved spending time with her and I don’t even know if I made her happy but I am sure she made me happy, she provided me with an escape from the stress of being a graduating student. Her time is precious and should have been given to someone who deserved it and yet she gave it to me, someone who did not deserve a second of her time. We both knew it was not going to end in a good way especially for her but we continued for sometime. When the day came it all ended, I thought I will be fine and not even be bothered but my idle thoughts keep going back to how things could have been if I waited for a bit longer for her to arrive and meet her. I keep thinking as to how things could have been if we were actually together. I thought giving it time and being away from her might make the thought just fade away but it persisted until now. Writing this confession might help ease this feeling of wanting to be with her. She deserved someone who will choose her first and will only choose her. She could have made better memories with those days when she was spending it with me but she chose to make memories with me. Someone else probably deserves all the hugs, the kisses, and the time she gave me and how I wish I was that guy. I don’t know how she felt towards me but I am thankful for every moment I spent with her.

I love her and this is probably the only place I can admit it. I want to forget that feeling because what I want out if it can never happen.