I have lesbian tendencies and I have acted out on them. I scared of being left behind and alone so I married a guy I knew from high school who has a good job and we have kids. I worked for a year and then quit, I just don’t like working so I made up the excuse that I needed to raise my kids and not a baby sitter. I never fantasize about guys, I only fantasize about girls. I have a huge crush on a friend who is a hard body crossfit workout queen, she is so tight and hard, rippled muscled arms and legs and she wears tight workout clothes when she comes to see me. I get wet just being with her and I want to just beg her to take me and do with me whatever lesbians do to girls. Oh, I know she is a lesbian because she has hinted it to me so many times, I want to scream out to her that I will be a lesbian with her. But I am married and have kids.