It’s weird. Im into a lot of strange stuff but I dont want to actually have s**. On top of that for some reason if im really into something I end up liking the things im scared of. Like being unable to move or being controlled along with a thousand other irrational fears. I dont know why but when I come down I always think “wtf me…” Is that a normal thing or is there a name for that? Iv looked up with thousands of different searches with no luck. Im a freak arent I lol.